Self Perception: Perfect Imperfection
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Mirror
“I was once named mirror because of that which I reflected back to the viewer. So what you see of me is only what you are choosing to see.”
Pear
“I have a pear body shape. For years I struggled with this until I learned how to dress my body shape, discovered my Power Accessory, AND birthed my 10 pound 11 ounce mega-baby - naturally! It was then that I realized the power, magnificence and absolute beauty of these out-of-proportion hips. And now, I'm able to embrace my body, as it is, in all its perfectly imperfect glory.”
Words Hurt
“Love is not hearing: Bitch, slut, useless, damaged goods, c**t, whore...etc.
Scars are not always visible to the naked eye... Words Hurt is a mild statement, giving someone the power to break you down physically & mentally scars you in unimaginable ways. I have broken free...I am worthy of real love.”
Beauty
“I was never the pretty girl. Not ever that. I had seen that box. It was small and cramped with a very specific shape. I just KNEW there was no way I would ever fit in THAT box. Then I had photo shoot that showed me what MY pretty looked like. And I was STUNNED. It was like for the first time in my whole life, I knew what it felt like to be pretty. Pretty in a way I had not experienced before. A pretty that was ME.”
Creating Space
"Creating intentional, safe space for me and my mother. The exact distance matters."
Voluptuous
“I have come across people in my life, (some closer than you'd think) that have belittled me for my weight. Thought less of me, passed judgment on me. I felt unlovable, unworthy and sad. I am proud to say I have finally taken control of who I am. I feel like I'm on top of the world. I'm strong, confident, proud, sexy, powerful, and deserving of all the love in the world! You ain't seen nothing yet!”
Blue Suitcase
“When I was a small child, my father packed a small blue suitcase, stood in the doorway and told me he was leaving. Since that time, I know that people who say they love you still leave. That may be a simple fact of life, but being left by my father at such a young age when I couldn't possibly process it as something other than abandonment, it became a constant in relationships. I have a hard time shaking the feeling that if I do anything wrong, anything less than perfect, I'll be left or dismissed again. Today, I think about that little girl a lot. I think about what I would tell her if I were in that doorway next to her. I'd say, "I love you, I love who you are becoming, and I'm not going anywhere."
Limitations
“My chosen perfect imperfection is the impersonation of a music icon that is of the opposite sex. There are limitations on what songs I can do because I have breasts, and can not use exact wardrobe as my idol.”
GRAA8FL
“I am truly blessed with an abundance of gifts in my life that are a direct result my perfect imperfection. From the moment of acceptance and surrender to it, it has inspired a life lasting journey to discover my authentic self and find love and compassion for myself and all my imperfections. The ultimate gift has been the comfort from finding a source of faith that I am not alone and that I am being taken care of and loved. I am truly GRAA8FL for my perfect imperfection.”
Vulnerability
“No one has seen me at my most vulnerable self. I push away and leave a distance so that there has never been a point where another person can discover all of who I am.”
Guilt
“For as long as I remember, guilt has followed my every move. Sometimes, when I’m feeling confident, I can assuage it’s gravity. Other times, I feel powerless and paralyzed. No direction feels right.
I carry this pack. I struggle with its weight. I press on.”
Roar
"Feeling Free with a voice of my OWN...
When I spoke I stuttered. At restaurants my family would order for me; when asked a question they would answer for me...I felt that what I had to say was not important or I was not good enough for anyone. I was humiliated; therefore silent.
Today, I speak with confidence and proud of my accomplishments. I ROAR!"
Breaking Free
